The last couple of days have been harder for me. I'm missing Mom.
We went through some boxes, trying to get things out of the house and into the new shed Concho has finished, and I came across lots of photos from the past and projects I remember doing with Mom and stuff like that. I even dreamed about her the last two nights, though I can't remember them well enough to repeat them.
I have a picture of just Mom and me from a Young Women's activity. I have one that I labeled, "Mom and her typewriter." Remember that "new" electric typewriter, that you could type one line digitally and correct before it typed on the paper? I remember how "cool" that was.
I pulled out Elizabeth's old clothes and found that the dress she wore to David and Kendra's wedding will probably fit Suzanna and Suzanna is thrilled. She wanted to wear it to church yesterday, but I told her I haven't washed it yet. She was very disappointed. When we got home from church I went into the kitchen to make dinner and Suzanna came to me about one minute later, with the dress, and asked if I had washed it yet. --I think that would have made Mom happy.
I found the fabric that Mom had used to make a maternity dress for me. We both loved that fabric and thought it would be such a cute dress. I still love that fabric. Elizabeth and I have re-used it for other projects, too.
Mostly, I'm realizing that we like to do a lot of reminiscing in this family and I'm really not liking not being able to pick up the phone and do that with Mom right now.
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I know what you mean. I've been having a really hard time too. I can't keep track of how many times I've grabbed for my phone to call mom to tell her something (important or not). Pathetic as it may be, I did call once just so I could hear her voice tell me to leave a message. It helped...after I cried :) I have dreamed about her too--before she was sick. Which was a blessing because until then all I could remember was post-diagnosis mom and it really frustrated me. I realized the other day (and I'm 90% sure this isn't false doctrine) that she's not far because she can't go far without her body soooo until she's resurrected she's still very close. And once she is resurrected, we all will be too! I'm rambling but thanks, it helped. :) Love you!
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