Thank you Shauna for sharing those, I had not seen them.
It also made me think about last week when I cleaned out my email Inbox. I was not prepared for the onslaught of emotions I felt as I sifted through the to-do lists for the funeral, Shauna's blog posts that got emailed to me, especially a rare email I got from Mom in June wanting to make sure people had sent me the pictures I'd asked for from her birthday party. The tears are coming just writing this.
It seems this will be the trend for a while because just tonight I was making cinnamon rolls and suddenly got hit with a deep ache. An ache for Mom, an ache to be with all of you, an ache and worry that I'm living a life good enough to be with everyone I love forever...all as I was pouring maple flavoring into some powdered sugar.
Sometimes life just stinks. I'm grateful for the gospel perspective which allows me to get through it, but it doesn't make it easy.
Have a good time tomorrow, I'll be thinking about you guys. Merry Christmas Eve!
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I feel for you my dear. Today I was fine during Sacrament Meeting until the last speaker shared a story--at the end of which the husband dies of cancer and they talk about Christmas morning. I was bawling! I'm not exaggerating...free-flowing tears in the second row for the bishopric and ward choir to see. Needless to say, today has been a bit rough. BUT good new for us...Denny and Dionne gave us their frequent flyer miles to fly home anytime we'd like! California family, here we come! (Not sure exactly when yet, but definitely within the next six months!)
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