Oops! I did it again

Sorry for updating the wrong blog.  I really need to pay better attention.

Nate update

Nate is now 5 weeks old and growing like a weed.  He is now 7lbs 6 oz.  Here are some pix of some fun outfits and his minion outfit compliments of Michael!

Thanks Aunt Shauna!

Spencer funny

Spencer continually cracks us up!

The other day after we picked Daniel up from school we stopped at the store to pick up some milk, etc. As we walked down the chip aisle (getting pretzels) Spencer asked for Cheetos. We told him, "Not today." He says to Daniel, who is holding his hand, "But Dad, I need them!"

Daniel has been trying to teach the concept of money to Spencer, so he said, "We need money to buy chips, do you have money for the chips?" Spencer quickly said, "Yes!"

Daniel surprised said, "You do, where?"

Spencer, "In your pocket!"

I want to give you a love

We had a very interesting experience with Spencer last week. Last saturday Daniel had gotten up with Jared, the first to wake up, to let me sleep in. While downstairs with Jared he heard Spencer calling out, sounding upset. Daniel headed up the stairs and heard Spencer urgently calling, "Grandma come back, I want to give you a love!" We call hugs and kisses "loves."

Daniel opened the door and found Spencer sitting up in his bed. He asked Spencer what was wrong and Spencer said, “I need Grandma come back, I want to give her a love.”

Daniel said, “Did Grandma come see you?”

“Yes”

Daniel said Spencer was very lucid and not groggy at all. Daniel tried to pull a little more information out and asked which grandma it was. Spencer didn’t seem to have the words to describe her so Daniel asked, “Which Grandma, the Grandma in California?

Spencer said, “Yes.”

But Daniel also asked, “Or the Grandma in Utah?” Again he said, “Yes.”

Then Spencer volunteered something to the effect of, “I go on a plane to see her but she not there. But she needs to come back, I want to give her a love!”

We’re still not sure if this was a dream or if Mom was able to come to our little boy but every time I think about it, the sweet peaceful feeling I have tells me that it was her. Of course, my natural reaction was a little jealousy. I miss her terribly, as I know we all do. But I’m grateful to have this reminder that she is still close by, watching over her family.

Oops!

Okay -- too many blogs. I posted to the wrong one. Sorry everyone! =)

Warning: Clean out your email at your own risk!!

Thank you Shauna for sharing those, I had not seen them.

It also made me think about last week when I cleaned out my email Inbox. I was not prepared for the onslaught of emotions I felt as I sifted through the to-do lists for the funeral, Shauna's blog posts that got emailed to me, especially a rare email I got from Mom in June wanting to make sure people had sent me the pictures I'd asked for from her birthday party. The tears are coming just writing this.

It seems this will be the trend for a while because just tonight I was making cinnamon rolls and suddenly got hit with a deep ache. An ache for Mom, an ache to be with all of you, an ache and worry that I'm living a life good enough to be with everyone I love forever...all as I was pouring maple flavoring into some powdered sugar.

Sometimes life just stinks. I'm grateful for the gospel perspective which allows me to get through it, but it doesn't make it easy.

Have a good time tomorrow, I'll be thinking about you guys. Merry Christmas Eve!

Did Everyone See These?

I just saw a couple of comments to Mom's obituary and wondered if everyone had seen them. 

On the mortuary website was this comment:

Lisa Baldwin

Posted Tue October 11, 2011

Carol was/is my most favorite adult - she was the best Young Womens leader anyone could have asked for. Carol - you will be so very missed. All my Love Lisa Baldwin   And on the newspaper website was this: "May God comfort the family and friends of Carol. We can all look forward to the time when death will be no more and instead of tears of sorrow there will be tears of happiness. (IS 25:8) Denise" And Maggie Elliott sent a prayer via Facebook to a couple of us, which I thought was very, very nice:   Dear Lord, I ask that you give my one of my best family friends the comfort that they need right now. Hold them when they feel that they can't stand up anymore due to their grief, hug them when they feel like no one knows how they feel, whisper I love you when they feel no one else cares, give them comfort that their mother is with you and not alone. Let them know that they have friends and family that love them tremendously, and would do anything for them. Help them to realize they did everything they could for their mom, and that their mom continues to love and be proud of them by the minute. Thank you Lord, in your name we pray, amen. Just wanted to be sure everyone had a chance to see these. Shauna